Hello. These last few weeks were kind of a restart of my retexturing career. I thought I would use this time as a waiting period so I could make my final decision on what to do. After thinking long and hard, I still have not made a decision. I am basing my decision on several things, one of which being downloads. Honestly, downloads for my retextures are rather skimpy. To those that did download them, I love you to death. But less than 20 downloads for an item? I am starting to feel that people don't appreciate my work like in the past. Not to toot my own horn, but before the "fall from grace" if you will, I had 400+ downloads on each retexture. So you can probably see the difference there. I'm not one of those people that gets petty or bitchy when I don't get what I want, I really am quite reserved. I just find it a tad disappointing. I can't blame you for that either. I can't control what happens out there in the internet. Unfortunately after a prolonged period of happiness, depression has reared its ugly head. My game isnt working, my life is in shambles (sort of) and I am losing hope. I am trying to hang on, and am doing better now, but that lingering sadness stays with me at all hours of the day and night.
So back to this... What should I do? I feel like no one likes this blog anymore, and that my presence is unnecessary here, what with the likes of Anubis, Metalmoose, or those others. I guess I am old news. I don't want to stop creating, I really don't. I just am not sure anymore. I not only create for myself, but I do it for you all. If I am unneeded here, why the hell should I stay? I cannot leave you all, I would be heartbroken. I am hoping I can get some answers soon. Love to all,
-Marie. x ♥